The past few months have been the worst...a lot of it has been my own fault, but not some other things...the sadness, misunderstanding, shouting and crying...tears, anger and hate were the only things that I saw around me. And when I thought I was going to leave it all and come to a place where something used to make sense...there it was! The most integral part of my life shattered and in pain. Pain that penetrated without any warning and left me broken as a person...the most horrible feeling anyone could have.

It seemed like happiness didn't want to be part of my life again. And worse still, I realized that I would never allow a silly little thing called love come anywhere near me...into my head or into my heart. I was afraid of being happy, of feeling love in any way...it hurts when it goes wrong and leaves you with nothing but the shattered pieces of yourself..alone and you try desperately to piece it back.

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But then a few days ago, I happened to come across something that completely changed how I felt about love. I don't know how I found it, but I really glad I did. With a few simple words, this person made those feeling of love and being loved come flooding back. With a few simple words there was a smile on my face. There was a feeling that rose within me in my heart...but it wasn't fear or hurt...I remember this feeling, it was faint...but there it was. It was amazing. I went to sleep that night not with fear of what would happen the next day or what would come to pass in the night...but with a spirit that welcomed back this silly little feeling. And it felt great. It reminded me how wonderful this feeling of being in love was.
True, things are still crashing around me, things have not fully healed...but your words gave me something to to keep living for, when it seemed like all I could do was give up. Your words have given me a strength to move forward and embrace each new day.

Thank you..you've brought a change in me. You helped love come back into my heart...with a few simple words I feel more alive than ever! Thank you for helping me realize that it's not so bad to let love be a part of you...

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LOVE..that silly little feeling.